Hey you, hope your week is off to a good start!
Routine #1 – Daily fear facing:
– Dare to challenge myself
08:17 – Okay, haven’t’ faced any fears today, yet. But I’m going to put one out here to challenge myself to do it… A big part of the fear facing is daring to go for it. Even though you know you may fail. That’s as scary as the action in itself.
So my challenge is a combined fear of 20 hours fast and my fear of sitting down to finalize my presentation material. The thing is, today is probably the only day I won’t be hijacked by all the other musts at work. So the plan, the fear, is to clear my schedule and ONLY focus on this until it’s 95% done. The reward will be that I’m allowed to eat this afternoon. If I’m done that is:).
Had to put this one out here, otherwise, I wouldn’t dare to throw myself into it. Wish me good luck. Social commitment for the win!
So how did it go? Well, the focus and intensity I’ve had throughout my workday have been on a new level. Out of this world. With the fasting and the outcome-based goal, I’ve just killed it. Nothing was able to put me off my track. I made quick good decisions and I was productive as heck. Knowing that eating wasn’t even an option made me totally let go of it. No energy waste on cravings for the soon to come food, as it tends to be. I Just worked super concentrated with short breaks. Breaks I had to force myself to, only to not fu*k up my body. Even though some other small things I needed attend came up, I handled them with precision in a way that impressed myself.
“Damn, good job Alex. Good job”
– Social Fears
Besides this, I also had some minor social fear facing. But it came with relative ease due to my state. Very fascinating.
Routine #2 – Doing something New
– Went to the gym in the afternoon. Fasted.
I haven’t had an afternoon strength exercise in ages. Partly due to my deeply implemented morning routine, starting the day off with a workout. But also, because I’ve adopted this belief that I’ll just be hungry and tired after work. Almost like it can’t be done. Fixed mindset. I sure proved myself wrong.
As I’m currently at the gym at the point of writing this, winding down on the bike. I must conclude that I haven’t experienced a workout like this in… Actually, it’s a new kind of experience. I think the combination of the incredible flow state and focus I’ve had throughout the day has put me in some kind of superstate. The energy, the intensity, the strength. I can literally feel how I’ve got tunnel vision, but in a good intense way. At least in this context. It’s like I’m on some kind of drug. I’ve had an incredible workout. A workout I’ll look back at thinking –
Man, I wish I’d get that again.
I don’t know what my conclusion of this experience is. But the fact is that me daring to throw myself into this challenge, was the best thing that could’ve happened today. Yes, that’s a total exaggeration. But you’re smart enough to figure that out.
So, did I finish? No, not quite. But I put in such a good effort that I consider it a win, and I don’t believe I could have done it in a much better way. With that being said (and felt), I’m going to treat myself with a dinner after more than 20 hours of fasting and an amazing day. Today I experienced a new Alex I look forward to seeing more of.
See you tomorrow, Fear facer,