Speaking Fears.

As I’ve embraced this lifestyle of calling myself a #FearFacer, it makes it so obvious what I must do.  And that helps. There’s no alternative. Are you a Fear facer?

Routine #1 – Daily Fear Facing 

-Different work-related social fears. Check.

-When I walked home I, despite the fact that I was 10% alive and 90 % dead after a loooong workday, found myself craving some awkward interaction. Just something. A little fix.

“Excuse me, would you mind taking a photo with me”

“No, sorry, I’m in a bit of a rush”

“Okay that’s fine” Or… What if I walk with you and we can take the picture as we go?”

“No, sorry… I’m in a hurry”

I wished her a nice day, and she was off quicker than I had time to take a closer picture of her back. Still, it gave me a little fix. Good job Alex, good job.

Routine #2 – New thing

Nooo, forgot about it… I’ll come up with something before going to bed – promise! Or wait, I wore my super nice high heal (!) leather Tiger shoes for the first time in a Year. Felt really special walking around with those. Made me feel a bit important as it made me taller and it clicked nicely for every step I took. It actually bosted my social confidence some! Funny how the small things can make such a difference sometimes.

Routine #3 – The Daily Fail

I was super hungry at 11.00 already. The strenuous leg exercises sure played its part in that. Nobody else wanted to have lunch at that time, so I ate alone. Couldn’t help but feel a bit bad for doing so. Now don’t get me wrong, I love eating alone. But that’s the problem, I do that a bit too often by routine. Which is bad because I should combine the opportunity of socializing with people. And if I never pushed myself to do that, I would have all my meals solo.

BUT, today I made a strategic decision to eat earlier. Which was fine because my body needed the food pronto!  But even though I love eating alone, this time I couldn’t enjoy it because I felt like iI was making a bad move. Overanalyzing brain – anyone can relate?

I have to stand for my decisions and don’t feel bad about them once they’re made. Then the action has already been taken, nothing changing that. Wasting precious time feeling anxiety – HECK NO! I know better than that.  I can socialize the next time, and I have to learn to deal with decision regret in a better way!

See you Tomorrow, Fear facer,

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